Im Human

I am not a perfect person, Im flawed, Im Human.

Ive been hurt, burned, trashed, and Ive Survived.

Survived not healed, Im Human.

I do not trust,

I do not open up and if I do,

Im likely to push away in due time, Im Human.

I have fears and worries,

Im afraid of feeling again,

the previous pains of my life,

I worry that I am getting too close,

These fears and worries cause me to rethink,

And pull back from those I have become close with, Im Human.

I can be a bitch and I can bitch and nag,

On the other side of the leaf,

I can be your best friend,

The sweetest person you have ever met, Im Human.

I do not know what I want,

But I know what makes me happy,

I know what makes me unhappy,

And I know what I do not want,

I will let you know these things, I am Human.

And I am damaged,

If you want to be here you need to understand my baggage,

I've been lied to, hurt, and torn down,

Im building back up but I remember the past, I am Human.

You need to let me know that you want to be here,

Because when it comes to the "Benefit of Doubt",

My bank is completely withdrawn, Im Human.

I doubt my choice to let people in,

Show me that this is your choice to be here,

And that I cannot make the decision for you, I am Human.

When you run ice cold water on your hand,

it starts out painful,

and becomes numb,

After everything I have endured,

I've become numb,

I am aware that the pain and feeling is there,

But I do not feel it, I am Human.

I stress out about my family,

take it or leave it, Im Human.

I am trying to heal the wounds of the past,

With the help of God,

I will accomplish my goals, Im ONLY Human.

Either your all in, or walk away, for I understand that YOU ARE HUMAN.